“Gods of the Liquor Store Video Game”

Christian Hanz Lozada

Artist Statement: While most of my poems describe internal negotiations to maintain identity, this one explores external concessions in the face of poverty, race, and a little bit of generational divide.

Eddie’s Jr. Market Liquor messed up; 

they bought an arcade game, just one.

Manoys saw it as a problem to solve: 

playing without paying.

They spent afternoons hammering coins 

and washers, adjusting width and thickness, 

testing their work by slipping homemade change 

into the slot, seeing which were spit back 

and which were kept, tying change to fishing line, 

and changing knots. They learned nickels worked best, 

flatter with string, thicker without, but always flash 

a real quarter when you start or the clerk will ban you 

forever. Buy one loose fun-sized candy before you leave 

to play four times tomorrow. They got so good at it,

White Mom and Brown Dad thought them, us, geniuses 

or video game gods, hours of entertainment on a quarter,

four total, one for each of us. When they changed the game,

the slugs stopped working, and we had to find techniques

to get more quarters from Brown Dad. Nothing worked.

Machines are easier to fool than people,

especially when those quarters are earned 

by sleeping during the day, working all night

Surrounded by a cacophony of machinery and meat 

from the dog food factory’s boiler room.

When quarters cost you the ability to hear, 

you can give no more than four, 

even to gods and geniuses, 

before you stop hearing requests.

 

Christian Hanz Lozada is the son of an immigrant Filipino and a descendent of the Confederacy. His heart beats with hope and exclusion. He co-authored the poetry book Leave with More Than You Came With from Arroyo Seco Press and the history book Hawaiian in Los Angeles. His poems and stories have appeared in Hawaii Pacific Review (Pushcart Nominee), A&U Magazine, Rigorous Journal, Cultural Weekly, Dryland, among others. Christian has featured at the Autry Museum, the Twin Towers Correctional Facility, Tebot Bach, and Beyond Baroque. He lives in San Pedro, CA and uses his MFA to teach his neighbors’ kids at Los Angeles Harbor College.

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